Things are Piling Up

Been a while since I write here.  Things have been pretty much the same at the moment, with work life being stagnant and all.  I guess what’s picking up in my life is actually my church involvement.

75th Anniversary is just around the corner and seriously, planning for it can be quite crazy.  But I do thank God for this opportunity and for the wonderful team that I have right now.  Things may be different from the many events I’ve organised, and this, being the largest scale ever for me, is truly a challenge that I look for in my, quite mundane life right now.

Spiritually, I think I still need to push myself a lot more.  I’m being lazy, and many times I feel like not wanting to read my bible, do my devotion or even to pray.  But God is great!  Many a times, I am reminded the need to do so, and it’s a blessing everytime I pick myself up for it.

Peace of God is what I need right now.  And in some ways, I am seeking for God’s direction in my life ever more.  I wonder, am I to be here for a long long time?  What is in store for me oh God?  Which direction should I take?  I would love for new challenges in my life, and with that in mind, I came to this company, but at the moment, nothing is happening.  I do wonder if I have made the wrong choice.  I am at lost over what I need and ought to do at the moment.  In many ways, I do seek God’s peace, of course, I do hope for an answer, but if it doesn’t come, or maybe the timing is yet to come, then God’s peace is what I yearn for.  Like the peace that could be sensed in that picture, the ability to be still and be at peace with God is something that I hope for….

Was reading Abby’s blog and heard the song.  It really does make me think of the need of us Christians to really turn our eyes away from our worries and focus on Jesus himself.  As you look at Him, remembering all the blood and pain he went through for us, and yet, in His glorious compassion, His face is filled with us, inviting us to draw closer to Him… oh, what else could You wish for but Him…  Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus and Look Full in His Wonderful Face…  everything does fade away as you look full in His face… focusing only on Him…

Words of Wisdom

This is a good read for us all…..

Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio

“To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I’ve ever written.My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more”:

1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.

8. It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.

12. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ‘In five years, will this matter?’

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.

35. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s,we’d grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come.

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.”

It’s a Climb

I just finish watching the movie Hannah Montana, and I realised that there are many things that one can see in the movie.  I am reminded of my walk with God.  Sometimes, my working life really do take a hold of me and threaten to pull me away from my faith, but like this movie, there is a need for us to break free from all these and go back to your roots. Sometimes I allow things in my life to crowd me, times spent online doing nothing, times spent at work slaving to get things done, and all the rest… but yet when it comes to spending time with God, when it comes to praying, when it comes to just being still before me, my reply to God would be, sorry Lord, I’m just soo tired today, sorry Lord, I just don’t feel like it right now, and there would be tons and tons of other excuses.  But if it comes down to the bareness of it all, God, forgive me for my spiritual laziness, forgive me for being such a lukewarm person, forgive me for choosing to neglect you than to give you more of my time oh Lord.

I guess it’s about time to come clean from it all, and really, really get it down with God.  At the end of the day, with everything that I have and do not have right now, I know what is really important to me.  I truly know that I cannot live with God, without Jesus in my life.  I know that I am nothing, I am no one without God, without Jesus in my life.  And it was through Him, that I have accomplished so much in my life.  It was Him who has blessed me with such a wonderful life, wonderful family, wonderful friends.  It was Him who, who is the essence of who I am.  For He is who He is, my God, my Saviour, my Creator, My Comforter, My Provider, My Healer, My Prince of Peace, My All in All.

The greatest gift that one could have given me is life, and Lord, forgive me for wasting so much of what You have given to me.  Teach me oh Lord, to cherish this life that you have given to me.  Teach me oh Lord, to come and bare it all to You each and every day, strip me oh Lord, off my pride and whatever that is withholding me from You.  Lord, I want to come before You, to be naked before Your eyes oh Lord, off with my shirt of pride, with my dress that is blocking You from reaching deep inside of me oh Lord.

With whatever that I have and whatever that I am lacking, oh Lord, I want to come before You, seeking You, for You are my helper… and only You oh Lord, can be the one to heal me, to make me whole once again.  I yearn once again for that deep embrace, for that deep relationship, for that satisfaction of just being able to be still before You oh Lord.

It’s just the beginning of my climb oh Lord, but I will be sure to enjoy this climb, knowing that You are with me, and that the view is just going to be great even though it may be tough.

Thank You Lord, love you heaps!

Ain’t Feeling Well

Crazy week, started off with the Monday busy at work (yes, I was actually busy.. haha).  Anyhow, later of the day, I went down to the IT department with a couple of my colleagues as I need to add up the RAM for my notebook (FINALLY!!).  Oh wait, I think I went down there for another meeting first.  After getting that meeting over and done with, I waited for another colleague to come down and join us for the upgrading.  As it was going to take roughly about 10 to 15 minutes, my colleagues and I decided to go down for a walk (well, that’s the benefit of working in a mall!).  Whilst walking, I was feeling a little off, like getting slightly dizzy and all.  Not knowing anything, I just bought 100 plus thinking it’s probably the heat.

Once we’re done, I asked my colleauge for panadol, thinking that would get rid of my dizziness and the awkward feeling that I’m having.  What’s surprising was I totally crashed!  Yea, crashed in the office, slept for like an hour or so.. woke up almost 5 and told my boss, I can’t take it already.  So I drove home, prayed as well since I wasn’t well and I still need to drive… and I came home and totally crashed!  Man, what a nite, I slept until 7 plus, went to the loo and continue sleeping after that… woke up about 10ish, showered and then crashed again.. haha.. I was totally crashing the whole nite through.

Anyhow, I woke up on Tuesday morning thinking I was alright.  But after my shower, my whole body was aching.  It was then that I decided to go see a doc.  Doc was checking me through and was asking me the basic stuff.  I think H1N1 is so big deal that whoever is sick will be questioned on whether they travelled recently.  Well now, I got back from Bangkok a week ago, but seriously, I was fine the whole time.  This is honestly, just a pure, “the weather’s hot, the haze is back, not drinking enough water and eating too much heaty stuff” kind of sickness, ya know what I mean?  Anyhow, doc was assured that it wasn’t H1N1 and thus I was put on normal medication.  Came home, ate a piece of bread, took the medicine and totally crashed!  Man, haven’t been sleeping so much!  haha…

Woke up at 12ish.. was feeling better and all too.  So ended, working at home.. haha.. no choice, had to get my staff to settle some things for me and I gotta settle some stuff for my boss too (whenever did I get so busy at work?  So unlike me whilst at this place).

Lo and behold, my throat acted up again at nightime, it got worse!  The pain is back and I can hardly talk.  After taking the medicine, I totally felt like sleeping.  I even told him that I’m gonna crashed and he was like, so sudden??? Hahah.. man, the medicine is strong!

This morning whilst at work, I took my throat medicine.  What I didn’t realise what the fact that it will also cause me to be drowsy, so this morning, I was such a zombie at work!!!!!!!!!!!  Skipped lunch and napped/ ok fine, SLEPT for an hour… hehe… boss thinks I’m still sick and the end of business day today and asked me to take another day of MC from the doc.

Well, shall see how.  If the throat is acting up again, I guess I’ll ask him to let me work from home, I guess, since it ain’t going to be much of a difference whether I’m in the office or not.

What a week!  Do pray for me that I will get better before the end of this week. Am worship leading this Sunday and was supposed to go for a song presentation practice this Friday too!  Shucks…

Dear Lord, I pray that You will heal my throat and give me a stronger and healthier body as well! In Jesus’ name I pray, AMEN.

It’s so HOT!

My gosh, it’s superbly hot right now at home!  I’m sweating like mad.

For lunch, I had porridge again!!! hahaha… siao liao… I think I am having this porridge craze recently.  A little nuts!

Tonight is Nuwav’s 5th Anniversary celebration!  It’s gonna be soo cool I tell you.  Okay, I was asked to participate in the Nuwav’s MV.  Honestly, I tell you, I cannot act.. and seriously, I was put into a very funny action mode!  My gosh, I cannot believe how things will turn out to be!  Sigh.. but what can I say!  I guess youth is not such a word to describe me already.. feeling olD! hahaha

Nuwav E Youth

Some pics taken during Mother’s day!!!

I loveeee the pictures with Miracle in it! She is so cute!

I Cooked Yesterday!

It’s been a while since I’ve cooked.  But being a sick person and since mom has already prepared the dishes for the rest of the family, I decided that porridge would be my selection for the night and thus, that’s what I’ve cooked!

Well, limited in ingredients, I just grab whatever that is available for me to cook.  So my porridge consists of:

1.  One potato, cut into cubes

2. Pork meat (well marinated, but I added honey to give it a sweet tinge)

3. An egg

4. Rice (half a cup)

5. Salt

All I did was just to wash the rice, dump it into a pot, fill it with water and cook it.  As potato takes a long time to cook, I threw it in along with the rice in order to make sure it’s soft enough.  Lots of stirring is needed as the rice tends to stick to the bottom of the pot if you don’t stir it.

I like my rice to be very very meshed up, if you know what I mean, so I had to add water into the pot to ensure that the rice absorb enough water to soften.  A tinge of salt is put into the pot to ensure that there’s some taste to my porridge.  Not too much though, or the porridge will turn out to be salty.

As for the pork, although it’s well marinated, I put some honey onto it to ensure that it’s not too salty.  I also put a bit of honey into the porridge coz it will sweeten the porridge too!  Hehe…  Once I see the porridge is cooked enough, I put the meat into the porridge.  It doesn’t take long to cook.

Once it’s cooked, I cracked the egg into an empty bowl and pour the hot, hot porridge into the bowl, ensuring that the porridge covers the whole egg.  Leave it for a few seconds, well, take the time to set your table or prepare the utensils for this meal, and then… stir it!  You will see the egg well cooked =)

All in all, the meal was sweet and just nice!  Lovely dinner it was… I had fun cooking ….

God is Moving

Do you see God moving?  If you take a good look around you and reflect on the things that’s happening, I’m sure you’ll be able to see it.

God is raising up the young people of this generation, moving them to places that some may never think the youth or young adults could, bringing along with them to desire to impact and make a change in this world, in this generation.  At the same time, I also realise that the devil is trying to stop it, bringing as much destruction as he could, trying to deter those called by God, stopping them through whatever means that he could.  Fight on ya all!

I see God moving, really I do.  Look at the young people, they have so much energy, and they are channeling it to make an impact!  Questions that they are asking is, what can I do to make a difference?  How can I reach out to those in need?  Can you see that desire burning in their hearts?  Can you see God bringing unity amongst the people?  It is no longer, I’m a Pentecostal, I’m a Charismatic, I’m from Pybesterian background, or Methodist and many others, but it is now, I’M A CHRISTIAN.  I don’t care from what background you are from, but rather, hey, how can I reach out to the place where I am working/ studying?  How can I do more than I am right now?  God is raising people to bring impact to those around them.  It is no longer confined in church buildings, it is no longer confined to Sunday service or even church outreach events.  It is now, I want to live a life that shines forth for God no matter where I am and what I do.  I wana live for Him, and I wana do His will, to reach out and impact the lives of others.  No matter how little or how small a seed that I managed to plant, I’m sure God is using me to touch the lives of people that I come across.

Look at God and how He’s moving in the entertainment scene.  Check out Hong Kong and Taiwan… look at the number of Christian artists that are there.  Look and hear the number of Christian artists and singers giving thanks to God through whatever means that they could.  Hey, remember, they are christians who are forgiven too.. they are not perfect, no one is perfect, not even me, but you know what, we are called Christians because we are forgiven.  So, cut some slack, if you see what the media writes, it can be crap as well ya know.  So instead of reading and believing what the media writes, why don’t you pray for them?  Pray for truth to prevail at the end of the day.  Media need stories to get selling, and what’s better than cooking up a story or even over hyping certain things to feed the crave of the people?  Well, I always believe that God is good, and even if I stumble and fall, he is there to catch me.  What’s more, like what Ps Jaeson Ma got from his friend, don’t be too hard on yourself.  Rather, look at your own stumbling and failing/falling as another step that God uses to build us up to be more like him.  God is our moulder, our builder, so in everything that we do, or that we have failed in our doings, let us turn to Him once again for Him to mold us more.

God is good!  Keep moving God!  I’m seriously, truly, crazily excited with all these things that’s happening.  And I wana be a part of it!  God is good! Prayer, prayer, prayer… send your prayer to support all those that’s around you!  Check it with God and let God reigns

I See Grace

Oh Lord, You never fail to touch me through Your songs.  You never fail to move or stir my heart through them all.

Lord I am overwhelmed by the grace that you have shown to me.  For out of nothing that is worthy, You chose me to be one of Your redeemed.  Out of millions out there, You placed me at a place where I could never imagine I would be.  I cannot imagine, how big, how vast, how majestic and amazing Your love is for me.

At the cross where I bow my knees, I see Grace, Your Grace that is sealed by Your sacrifice.  You chose to be on that cross on that faithful day, chose to redeem me, even before I was formed in my mother’s womb.  You paid that price to redeem me, to bear all my sins and curse, so that I may once again stand before God, alive and well.  You bear all the wounds afflicted on You, not minding the hurt and pain, even to the point of death You still seek God’s forgiveness for us.

I am in awe of You oh Lord Jesus.  I am speechless, utterly speechless… I am breaking down right now, in my office, being overwhelmed by Your Grace.

The vision of You being pierced, wounded, nailed to the cross, that is what I see right now.  And at the point of death, right after You spoke of forgiveness for us, You have torned down the veil that separates us from God.  You have opened up the heaven for us, allowing us to step in.   You chose to be that bridge that has bled for us, a bridge that continues to link us to God.  You, in all Your glory, chose to be in tatters, You, the son of God, chose also to be the son of man at the point of Your birth.

Oh Lord, the sacrifice that you have done… I am utterly speechless… utterly amazed… utterly consumed by it.  Your Grace, continues to envelope me… each and every time….

A mere christian, in all her imperfection, you chose her to be your servant.  Your servant, in all here mere ability and inabilities, surrenders it all to You oh Lord.

To Abby

Friends, these are definitely people whom I appreciate for being in my life.  Right now, it seems that a lot of them are leaving me behind, with one going to Australia and a number of my really close friends are in Singapore.  I do feel left out, because this means I don’t get to hang out with them as much as I want to, to get a hug from them whenever I want to, to drop by their place and etc.  I am sad, honestly, feeling at loss with the thought of my friends being far away from me.

But you know, I also trust that God has great plans for my friends.  I guess we are where we are because God places us there.

Abby, I know that you are moving away and I know you are sad and scared.  But you know what, I also know and trust that God is the person directing your path.  I know you are going to miss your family and friends.  Please do know this, we will miss you heaps too!

Thank you for being such a wonderful friend to me.  You’ve always been a constant reminder to me and the encourager of my walk with God.  You’ve always shown me the difference of one who follows and chases after God wholeheartedly.  You’ve motivated me to draw closer to God too.  Thank you for being you at all times, especially during the time when we started working.  We were all going a transition in our lives at that time, and it is through our friendship that we are able to pull through it and come out strong.

Forgive me for being the tougher one in our friendship.  Forgive me for scolding you, but trust me when I said it was for your sake that I did that.  Forgive me when I was impatient with you, forgive me when I treat you like a little girl.

I’ll miss you heaps my dearest friend, companion and sister.  Thank you for being you.  Thank you for the privilege of being your bridesmaid.  That was my first, and most probably my last for being a bridesmaid to my close friends.

I urge you to not worry but continue to trust God as you travel overseas.  Continue to be the prayer warrior that you are.  Be the praying wife and friend that you are.  Rest assured, God is faithful as you continue to be faithful.  Although the distance is there between us, I believe, we will be able to overcome this through our constant keeping in contact with each other.

I love you, my dearest sister.  I know, this may come a little earlier than it’s supposed to, but truly, I’m missing you already.