Praying

After disappearing from Wednesday prayer meet for the longest time, I went for it today. You know, it does feel awkward after having disappeared and not pray in a very big group for a long time. Of course, the fear of praying in group does exist. Have you ever thought, shucks, how should I phrase my sentence and bla bla bla when I pray in front of everyone ya?? Hm… I mean, that was a question that I kept asking myself years ago, when I was younger, when I was more self conscious, when I was still a little naive and when I was trying to figure out myself too!

Honestly, when you’re young, it’s so easy to pray on your own.. just blap out whatever you want (of course, you meant what you said whilst you’re praying).. yet when in group… you floundered, words get caught in your throat, you seemed to have lost your vocalchord, with no voice coming out and all… but you know what, it doesn’t really matter does it if you floundered, if you don’t know what’s the next word and all… praying means saying what’s in your heart right? It means that I can get stuck with words in my throat, but hey, who doesnt? but it’s the heart of what I’m praying’s what’s matter!

People often asked me, eh… how to pray ah? Hm… was a question! I used to be so dumbfounded when I got asked… I’ll say, “I don’t know, but hey, it’s like talking to a friend! There ain’t a formula lerrr”. Well, praying means talking to God right? Praying means just telling out all those things that’s in my heart and in your mind right? Praying means you can ask questions and all too! (okay, sometimesssss the answers does take a while to come.. but it does still come!).

When I pray, I talk… sometimes I would go, you know God, I realy don’t know what to pray now… or I would say, ermm… how ah God, how to pray about this ya? Sometimes, in mere frustration, I would just say, God ah.. I really don’t know how to pray about this… but you know my heart right? You know what I want to say right??

I have a friend who prays in a rather cute way. Be it in a big group or with her young cell members (they are like.. all high school or uni students and she is like married and pregnant and due in 1 months time! I’m going to be a GodMother… okok, that’s another story)…. she would go…Hi God…. hehe… I pray hor… u bless my family… u bless my cell members.. u take care of them ya… don’t let them be too say orrrr.. bla bla bla.. okok.. probably the content would be different, but it’s the way she prays… so cute! and you know what… that’s PRAYER TOO! It doesn’t matter how you pray or how you say things… be it in a big group or alone… when you pray, no matter how, so long as you pray from your heart…. I think that’s a really cool prayer too! and yes.. even if it meant praying 2 sentences, i.e. Dear Lord, I pray you will bless allllllll my friends and people who read this blog!!!! AMEN!

So hey, take time to pray ya! I gotta do that toooooooooooooooooooooooo